body

i remember, i had food to eat
i remember staring at my feet
don't touch it i remember saying
just leave it. demons started playing
i remember, they said i looked good
i remember, sometimes i ate food,
just a little, just a bit,
just enough to still stay fit
i remember, fit was not enough
i remember, eating out got tough,
no thanks', i'll eat it later mom,
but later i'm meant to stay strong
i remember how my own bones feel
i remember i just skipped my meal
"Babe, are you betraying me?
can't you see what i can see?"
i remember crashing down in tears
i remember meeting all my fears
"you look healthy, you have gained"
herds of judges leave me drained
i remember feeling fucking worthless
demons busy building their nest
see, there is more worth aiming for
more than that old bathroom floor.

remember, patience is of need
remember, there's a need to feed
your body and your soul as well
you're loved
get up 
after
you
fell